Vainity speaking

I am not sure what has switched the last couple of days, but I have felt much better about my reflection in the mirror and the body inside my skin the last couple of days. It has been so long since I thought about me as a woman and not a list of responsibilities. Even J's visit didn't really help much. I hope it isn't just the fever but the beginning of reclaiming the sensual, femine, physical part of my being. It is so easy to fall out of touch with that part of me. To start see my physical being a simple another machine that needs maintenance not an integral part of who I am. This probably makes no sense but I wanted to capture the thought before it slipped away; I need to find ways to add things back into my life that help me have such thoughts more often. As a reference point, I need to remember how I felt about me as a body in 2000 and what I was doing to feel that way.


In the meantime here is to a good hair day, a sassy red polka dot shirt (that only clashes a little bit with a sunburn I got yesterday while sitting outside talking to Howard (co-worker and senior faculty member), cute shoes, and mysterious eyes.

Now I return to the land of lists of responsibility and a 12 hour day on campus.

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I do not have to lecture again until July 19th. This makes me very happy.